this week has been really really exhausting with the duties and i am beat beyond beat. okay, maybe not that bad, but still. im really tired. i have one more this thursday so thats a bummer. wish i had you here with me to ease the pain a little bit, lovely. a kiss and a hug could power me for days, weeks, and months even. i need hug energy from you again(: I MISS YOU HYONA

Its difficult to even begin describing how much i long for your touch. How much i miss your laugh, your smiles, your kisses. As i sit here and write this its even difficult to contain myself from my weaker emotions. i miss you hyona. I really do. Words dont cut it but right now it plays a large part.i miss you. Badly. i cant wait to be lost in your embrace again.

Finally got down to write this post to you. It was supposed to be a sweet anniversary note but after the emotional breakdown i just unleashed on you... I feel like the biggest schmuck. right now, all that just ended and i swapped my battery in, and said hi, yknw trying to steer the convo away from my hiccup but youre not replying. Read, but no answer. I know i think too much sometimes, but my heart is consuming my mind right now. You blogged a few days ago about the scariest thing about distance is you not knowing whether youre forgotten or missed. I know that feeling very well. Being forgotten. Having to wonder if im on your mind at all or not. The thing that pulled me this far without me going insane are those times that you proved to me that you do miss me and i hold on to that so so dearly. I freaked out when i sensed that small change in you just now, because baby, you have no idea how much stronger you make me when youre the sweetest to me. I can conquer worlds and knock buildings down and i can fly and lay the smackdown on anyone who messes with you. but right now, i'm so terribly lonely. There is a void in me that no one, family or friend, can ever come close to filling. I... Need you. More than you will ever know, and more than i will ever show you. Because who could possibly love a parasite like me? my room is where i feel the safest, the most sane,the calmest. But it is also where loneliness is my only companion. I miss you. With all that i have in me, with every applicable metaphor ever said, with all my heart, and all my soul. happy anniversary, dear. I will always see myself as your boyfriend, no matter what you say and i love you, always.

its been a short while since my last post. quite a few things have happened, the same old things but they happened nevertheless.

i wish i could be a better person. no matter what i do it just seems like im doing mostly wrong. i dont know. all i know is that i miss you, and i try to express that as best i can with my own ways. perhaps my ways are wrong.

anyway i did promise i would blog and tweet more often and i will. if at least these simple things will make you happy i would do it happily. i love  you dear. cant wait for the end of june.

These past few days have taken quite a toll on both of us,huh? Falling sick at the same time sucks. I can't bea hundred percent there for your needs when you are. Sorry I've been alittletoo much under the weather baby :( Been taking my medicine religiously so I can get better and be better for you. I love you baby. I really hope you get better soon and I wish I can take all your pain on my own shoulders. Mwah.